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The Memoir

Cover image by Huy Nguyen

The Memoir

The silence in his allocated quarters was Axon’s first discomfort. He was a man acclimated to the perpetual, low-frequency hum of his metropolis—the sound of a billion concurrent transactions, the subsonic vibration of life mediated through personal devices, of individual expression performed in a trillion different ways. It was the sound of progress, a symphony of ambition that had always been the backdrop to his thoughts. Here, the absence of that noise was a void, and in that void, he could only hear the too-loud rhythm of his own heart.

Here, the air was still. The room was practical, shaped by an ergonomic hand that felt no need for personal statement or unique identity. It was a room that existed to be used, not to be seen. The photographs on the walls captured the beauty of the city’s common spaces and the focused harmony of people working together. The bedding was of a practical, high-quality cotton, and the desk, while unadorned, was a piece of art in its own right—its wood beautifully grained and shaped by a master craftsperson’s hand, its value lying in its perfect function and the skill it represented.

Yet the room offered him nothing to claim and, to his eyes, nothing to admire. It felt less like a personal sanctuary and more like a beautifully rendered lobby in a corporate archive—impersonal, efficient, and ultimately anonymous. It was the most anonymous space he had ever inhabited, and it made his skin crawl.

The absence of a lock on the door prickled at his core, a constant, subtle assault on his sense of security. His entire life had been a process of building locks—on his doors, his data, his social circles. This open door felt less like an invitation and more like an exposure.

It was in this gentle, unyielding space that he prepared for his most unorthodox experiment. His briefing had been clear: penetrate the social hierarchy of this collectivist society. Identify the leverage points. Understand what they value so we can predict them, or if necessary, disrupt them.

After failing to identify any individual of consequence—no CEOs, no innovators, no leaders to profile—his initial report was a blank page, a professional embarrassment. He had resorted to a radical request: a personal memoir. The locals had found the concept bizarre, even mildly obscene, a violation of some unspoken social contract. To Axon, it was the most fundamental unit of data: the story of a self. Their reluctance only confirmed their dysfunction. Yet, one citizen had acquiesced.

He powered on his sleek datapad, its sterile glow a beacon of purpose. He positioned it squarely on the desk, a bastion of his own world. This was his ritual, his anchor.

As it booted up, a system alert flashed:

Security Sync Incomplete. Contact Central Node 734

He dismissed it with a flick of his finger.

Some outsourced tech in a support hub, he thought with a flare of irritation. Their incompetence is wasting my time. He initiated a automated diagnostic, a process created and maintained by faceless programmers, and gave it no further thought.

The machine was his tool; the network behind it was an abstraction, a utility, like water from a tap. Its inner workings were someone else’s problem to manage efficiently.

A knock. Not the sharp rap of a scheduled meeting, but a soft, almost tentative tap, as if the person on the other side was ensuring they weren’t interrupting. It was a sound that asked permission.

He straightened, his posture automatically shifting into interview mode.

The subject had arrived.

Axon straightened his tunic. “Enter.”

The door slid open without a sound. The woman who stood there was not what he had expected. She wasn’t aged and wizened with a life of stories, nor was she a fiery youth rebelling against her culture. She was perhaps in her mid-thirties, with a calm, settled presence. Her clothing was simple, functional, and notably unadorned. She held nothing in her hands—no notes, no device, no offering.

“Axon?” she said, her voice as even and calm as the room’s atmosphere. “I am Lyra. You asked for a story.”

Axon gestured to the simple chair opposite his, a clear interviewer-subject dynamic he aimed to establish.

“Yes. Please, sit. I appreciate you doing this. I want to hear your story.”

Axon’s finger hovered over the “record” button. Lyra sat, her posture relaxed yet attentive. She did not look at the glowing datapad, but directly at Axon. A small, almost imperceptible smile touched her lips.

He pressed record.

“Start from the beginning. Your earliest memory, your ambitions, your greatest personal achievement.”

Lyra gave a slight nod, her gaze looking inward.

Axon’s stylus slid across his datapad. He created a new file labelled Lyra.

“My story,” she began, as a simple statement of fact. “That is a difficult place to start. You see, my earliest memory is not of myself, but of a sound. The sound of Liran singing to the tomato vines in the western greenhouse. It was a low, humming melody that seemed to vibrate in the warm, damp air, a sound that felt less like a tune and more like a form of tending. I was three, and I had fallen, scraping my knee. The sting was sharp, but my real distress came from the crushed basil plant beside me; its sweet, pungent scent released into the air by my clumsiness. Liran held the broken stalk and said, ‘The plant has given its essence back to the soil, and it will feed the next seed. Your tears are part of its cycle.’”

“So, you see,” Lyra said, her gaze steady, “we must begin with Liran, and the tomato vines, and the basil plant. Is that acceptable?”

“Yes, please proceed,” he said, his mounting inner frustration concealed by his clinical tone. He noted her use of the word “must,” a term of obligation. She wasn’t being difficult; she was stating a structural fact of her consciousness.

“Liran’s song was about the sun and the rain. I didn’t understand the words at the time, but I felt the pattern. It was a pattern of reciprocity, of giving and receiving. The greenhouse was his domain, but its glass was shaped by Elara’s design, who understood how the light would fall through the seasons, and its pots were made from clay dug by Hemmet’s crew from the riverbank.”

“The tomatoes I ate that summer were as much a product of that place as they were of Liran’s hands,” she continued. “Many summers later, I understood that was the meaning behind those words. The tomatoes we grew together symbolise more than just a joint effort; they represent the harmony between us and nature, and the habitat within ourselves.”

She paused, searching for a way to make him understand. “My story is this pattern. To remove the threads is to have no cloth left.”

Axon typed:

Subject deflects self-narrative. Initial memory is externally focused. Pathologise: inability to distinguish self from environment/others. Deeply ingrained collectivist indoctrination. Mentions: Liran (gardener), Elara (engineer?), Hemmet (labour).

He found her final statement particularly telling. It wasn’t a memoir. But he was a man with a scalpel, trained to dissect. He would have what he came for.

“But that moment was the beginning. The beginning of the unfurling of my appreciation of the world around me.”

Lyra smiled at nothing in particular, as though she were back in the greenhouse, listening to Liran’s song. The memory was a living thing in the room, and for a moment, the sterile air seemed to carry the scent of damp earth and basil.

Axon drew a mental box around the anecdote:

Cultural avoidance of self.

“Your childhood,” Axon interjected, steering firmly. “A specific moment. A personal fear, or a triumph. Something that shaped you.”

Lyra considered this, her expression undisturbed by his redirect.

“There was a fever. I was perhaps seven. I remember the heat of my own skin, and the cool cloths on my forehead. They were changed by many hands. My mother’s, yes, but also by Cora, who sat with me through the worst night.”

She smiled briefly. Again, as though the event were playing before her eyes.

“The medicine was brewed from a root found in a valley three towns away, by a man who travels around the regions and collects the best from each town he passes through for his medicines. I had heard tales of a herbalist in that region who grows some of the most beautiful herbs. I never knew her name, but I have always admired her skill.”

This was better. A crisis. A vulnerable child. Axon leaned in.

“And when the fever broke? That must have been a profound relief for you. A moment of victory.”

Lyra looked at him.

“It was a relief for myself and the community. My mother could return to her work without worry. Cora could sleep. The medic’s knowledge was affirmed. My recovery was due to everyone’s combined efforts. To call it my victory would be like a single gear claiming credit for the clock’s chime.”

An illogical analogy, Axon thought. A faulty gear could claim credit for the clock’s failure; it was only fair it could claim the success.

He typed a new note:

Subject demonstrates ingrained cognitive bias, attributing personal experience to the collective. Likely a social survival mechanism to minimise conflict.

“Let’s try a different approach,” he said, his confidence returning. This was a predictable pattern of groupthink. He looked around the room as though there would be something that stood out, that he could focus on, grasp, and help steer this interview back on the right track.

“Your greatest personal achievement. The thing you have done that you are most proud of. No one else. Just you.”

Lyra was silent for a long moment, not because she was searching for an answer, but as if she were patiently untangling the question itself.

“There is a bridge,” she said finally. “Over the River Kel. It is beautiful and strong. Kael and Misha came up with the initial engineering plans. Jina would bring water for the workers during the day. Brynn and Elara would weave the support ropes together, chatting as they went. Oh, the stories they would tell were as wonderful as their work.”

“So what did you do?” Axon pressed, his stylus poised.

“I had the chance to try out all sorts of things,” Lyra said, her eyes brightening at the memory. “I helped bring loads of river-stone and timber from the north bank with Orson and Talia. We got into a rhythm where it felt as though our carts moved like synchronised dancers. I helped serve lunch with Cai. On one of the days, we had Brynn’s favourite—spiced honey cakes—and he was so excited.”

“Okay, but what did you contribute?” Axon’s voice tightened. “A specific skill, an idea, something no one else did? Surely you did something other than just... help?”

Lyra’s brow furrowed slightly, not in offense, but in genuine confusion. “But being a part of it is what I am proud of. The ‘helping’ is the achievement.”

“So there’s nothing you did that was distinct? You just did what was needed in the moment?” he asked.

“We all did what was needed and what we were able to do,” Lyra corrected gently. “We knew what we wanted to achieve and we worked towards it. My hands on the stones were no more or less important than Jina’s hands carrying the water, or Kael’s mind envisioning the span. The bridge stands because of all of them. It stands because of us.”

Axon let a silence hang, his expression skeptical. “You speak of hands and minds, but you avoid claiming a thought. Did you ever have one—a concept that was, even for a second, solely Lyra’s?”

“I suppose, in a sense. There was this one night, when we were all gathered around planning, for example. I had an insight during a three-day community dialogue about its construction, about how to weave the cables to withstand the spring floods. No one told me to come up with an idea for a solution to that, but I did because that’s part of what we do, right?”

Finally. Axon’s fingers poised over the keypad. The breakthrough. The “I.” He would isolate this “insight” as the first piece of genuine data.

Primary Achievement: Cable-weaving technique.

“My insight,” Lyra continued, “came from watching the way Hemmet’s daughter wove her baskets. It was refined by a stone-mason’s story about an ancient arch. We discussed these things and drew up the ideas and plans all night. But by morning, together we had come up with a wonderful new approach that we were all eager to put into practice.”

“And how did that feel? To have your idea dissolve into the group’s like that?”

She looked at him, her expression utterly sincere. “It is the best thing I have ever been a part of.”

Axon’s stylus stilled. He stared at his datapad, at the incomplete entry. He had asked for a node, and she had given him the entire network. Again. A hot spike of professional frustration shot through him. This was like trying to isolate a single drop of water from a river.

His new note was sharper, more impatient:

Subject remains incapable of conceptualising discrete individual action.

The “memoir” is a failure; it is merely a decentralised history of the collective.

The silence in the room felt different now. It wasn’t peaceful; it was resistant. It pushed back against the logic of his datapad. He felt an inexplicable need to assert his own presence.

“Perhaps that’s enough for today,” Axon said, the words clipped, betraying a fraying patience.

Lyra simply nodded. She rose, offered a neutral “Until tomorrow,” and left as quietly as she had arrived, leaving no more disturbance in the air than a drawn breath.

Axon was alone again with the silence. The gentle hum of his datapad seemed amplified now, a sterile counterpoint to the organic, unsettling quiet of the room. Its glow didn’t illuminate his notes; it highlighted the emptiness around him, making his isolation feel acute and tangible.

Irrational, he chided himself, dismissing the feeling with a sharp shake of his head. The methodology was sound; he simply hadn’t found the right key to unlock a coherent, individual narrative.

He ran his hands over his face, the familiar gesture doing little to soothe him. Back home, frustration was a catalyst, a fuel to work harder, smarter, to outpace a colleague. Here, it just pooled in the silence, with no individual to blame and no clear path to victory.

But Lyra’s words refused to be filed away. They echoed, not like a broken record, but like an invading rhythm, subtly dismantling the melody of his own thoughts.

How does anything get built here? The question surfaced, unbidden. There are no bonuses, no promotions, no fear of failure. No one to lead the charge. And yet... the bridges stand. The greenhouses thrive.

He thought of the Atheron contract, the brutal, sleepless weeks fuelled by rivalry and the promise of a bonus. The final product was functional, even elegant, but the process had been a war of attrition. Here, the process itself seemed… peaceful. Efficient in a way that had nothing to do with time-sheets.

His mind snagged on her story.

They cannot even solve the simplest of problems without a chorus. This wasn’t just codependency; it was a fundamental refusal to be a self. Lyra wasn’t a person with a story—she was a living portrait of her community, her voice merely a focal point for a collective chorus.

He gave his head a firm, physical shake, as if to dislodge a stubborn parasite. The thoughts were illogical, unprofessional. Yet, they echoed.


The week that followed was a slow unravelling. Axon continued the interviews, but his clinical questions began to feel brittle, useless. He asked a textile artist what her “personal vision” was for a dye pattern. She smiled and began explaining how the recipe was a gift from an elder, how the cloth was spun by her neighbour’s child, and how the pattern emerged from a conversation about the river’s flow.

He watched a group of children building an intricate toy windmill. No one directed them; they simply found roles, their small hands and minds interlocking like cogs. One child held a part steady, another passed a tool, a third offered a quiet suggestion. There was no credit taken, only a shared focus on the emerging whole. When it was finished, they didn’t point to their individual contributions, but stood back together to admire the whirring blades. Their shared satisfaction was a physical thing in the air, a stark contrast to the possessive pride he was accustomed to.

He saw the same pattern in the communal kitchens, where the meal’s quality was attributed to the quality of the ingredients and the harmony of the cooks, not the genius of a chef.

He saw it in the repair of a water conduit, where a dozen people gathered not because they were ordered to, but because a broken conduit affected everyone, and a dozen minds and hands made the work light and quick. He saw it in the gentle way disputes were settled not by decree, but by a circle of discussion until a consensus emerged that belonged to no one and everyone.

He stopped taking notes on Lyra and started watching the web she was a part of. His frustration began to curdle into a form of awe, and a dawning, unsettling sense of recognition. It was the recognition of a fundamental logic he had never been taught. A system that didn’t run on the friction of competing egos, but on the gravity of shared need.

On his last day, standing at the departure point, he saw Lyra one final time. She was laughing with a group, her hand resting lightly on another’s shoulder. She raised her hand in a simple, open-palmed gesture of farewell—not to an individual, but to him as a part of the moment.

He found himself mirroring the gesture, his own movement feeling stiff and foreign. But for a fleeting second, before the self-consciousness rushed back in, it didn’t feel foreign at all.

It felt like an answer to a question he had only just learned to ask.


The return to his metropolis was a sensory shock. The glare of neon branding and the aggressive buzz of personal transport set his teeth on edge.

He stopped at a coffee kiosk, the routine act feeling suddenly foreign. As the server handed him his drink, their eyes met for a brief second. Instead of a faceless transaction, Axon was struck by the sheer chain of events that led to this cup—the distant farmers, the ship crews, the roasters—all culminating in this moment of exchange. The warmth of the cup in his hand felt like a connection to people he would never know, and it left him strangely unsettled.

In his apartment, the silence was different from Lyra’s world—it was dense, pressurised. He tried to relax, but the stillness was alive. He became hyper-aware of the low hum of the climate grid, a system maintained by people whose shifts he’d never considered. The water from his tap, the steady light from his lamp—each felt like a thread leading back to a thousand anonymous hands. The city’s constant roar, which had always been the sound of competition, now sounded like the labour of a single, vast organism.

At his desk he sat, trying to put everything together into a cohesive report. It felt as though his notes were a meaningless jumble of interconnected names and events. His datapad, once a symbol of clarity, now seemed to mock him with its linear structure.

He decided to write a piece as a comparison. Where Lyra’s story lacked cohesive individuality, he would fill in the blanks with tales from his own society for reference. Perhaps that could make it make sense.

So he set to work. He opened a new document titled Parallels.

He began typing about his own “greatest professional achievement”—securing the Atheron contract. He wrote: “I single-handedly identified the market gap and leveraged my network to...”

His fingers froze. Leveraged my network. The corporate cliché curdled in his mind, transforming from a boast into a confession. The solo triumph shattered, and in its place, he saw a chaotic mosaic: the junior analyst, Maya, whose offhand data point had sparked the idea; the team that had burned the midnight oil on a presentation he took credit for; the janitor, Samuel, whose unseen work maintained the “spotless” professional record he brandished.

Every accolade was a cairn built of stones passed to him by others, yet his entire life had been a performance of building it alone.

Lyra wore simple clothes because she had no one to perform for; her value was assumed.

His own life was a relentless performance, a live-action role play where everyone pretended to be self-made, even as they stood upon a mountain of invisible, unacknowledged labour.

Axon stood and walked to the window of his high-rise apartment. He looked out at the glittering metropolis, the pinnacle of his individualistic world. But his vision had shifted. He no longer saw a skyline of solitary achievements.

Axon traced the path of a delivery drone and saw the warehouse worker who loaded it. He followed the lines of the power grid and saw the maintenance crews in their harnesses. He watched the ant-like flow of commuters on the streets and saw not competitors, but the circulatory system of a single, vast being that was unaware of its own shape.

They were all nodes in a network, just like Lyra’s people, but here they were all pretending to be the entire machine.

The silence in his apartment was no longer empty. It was filled with the ghostly presence of the farmer, the tech node operator, the junior analyst, the janitor—everyone who made his solitude possible.

He looked at his reflection in the glass, a lone man in a lit window, and for the first time, the image felt like a lie.